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Embarrassing Teenaged Me

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My last few posts have taken a lot of emotional energy.

So I thought I’d lighten the mood by getting something off my chest.

When I was in high school (which was, you know, not that long ago….*cough*) you could only like a one kind of music.

You could like EITHER hip hop and dance music, OR alternative/rock music.


Not both.

If you liked both, you didn’t FIT anywhere.  And high school is all about where you FIT.  So you just had to choose.

And I fell into the alternative/rock category.  Dressed in silvers jeans and halter tops with ball chain jewelry and rings on all my fingers, undone plaid shirts for jackets and a big yellow Sport Walkman on my hip all the time. In order to fit into the skater crowd I surrounded myself with I needed to do just two things:

1. Love punk/rock/alternative music.  The more obscure the better.

2. Passionately hate rap/hip-hop/dance music.  And obviously country, too.  I mean, that was a whole other group of kids who wore trench coats and cowboy hats! 

So I did.  

It was all lamenting that the Sex Pistols were before my time (shut up!  They were way before my time!) and listening to the Rainbow Butt Monkeys before they changed their name to the radio friendly Finger 11.
While simultaneously mocking the preppy kids and their gangsta-rap in the suburbs.

I wore a black arm band when Kurt Cobain died.  My first concert was Green Day when I was 13 and they had *just* made it big. I tried desperately to sneak into the dirty rocker bar in town to see Hole.  I talked my way back-stage to meet Our Lady Peace, I begged until my parents let me go to Edgefest.  I owned even the crappy old albums from The Offspring.  I spent my mornings getting creeped out watching Soundgarden on Much Music (The Canadian version of MTV, back when they both actually played music videos) and discussing the profound political meanings behind every Tool video.
I even managed to fall desperately in ‘love’ with a local indie musician.
 Or two.  

Even though I was a huge try-hard poser just desperate to belong, I was committed to the rock music cause.  Which meant under no circumstance was I ever seen listening to Top 20 music.  Ever.

So for the most part, as lame as it makes a mom in her early 30’s, I still love me some rock music.

Rockin’ in my minivan, it’s all Skillet and Reliant K , Our Lady Peace and ‘seven nation army couldn’t hold me baaaaaack…...’  keeping me sane when I turn it up to drown out the kids.

Freckles at 6 years old.

But darkness has creeped into my life, and it’s happened while I’ve been running.
Slowly but surely, a new playlist has found it’s way onto my phone.

Because while my average music playlist sounds just like the one above, when I’m running…. well it sounds a whole lot less like Thousand Foot Krutch and a whole lot more like FUN and  Kelly Clarkson and before you know it I’m racing down the street to ‘save a horse ride a…….’

I’m so ashamed.

That’s my dirty little secret my friends.

But guess what?

When I was a teenager, I was far too concerned about fitting in to stray in my music choices.

But I’m a grown-ass woman now for goodness sakes!

And if  I want to hear ‘I love you like a love song bay-beeee’ while I am running down the street in the snow at 6 a.m., I’ll frickin’ download Selena Gomez with NO SHAME!

Okay.

Maybe a little shame.

So tell me, what’s your favorite music to sit in the car to, and is it any different from your workout mix?

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19 COMMENTS

  1. Heather Beck | 22nd Jan 13

    Eminem – Lose Yourself. Perfect cadence. Even get the head bob going … 😛

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      Oooo, I have that one too…. sigh.

  2. Megan | 22nd Jan 13

    I like Tiffany-I think we're alone now. It makes me happy.

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      Tiffany makes everyone happy. Plus, we're dating ourselves.

  3. Anonymous | 22nd Jan 13

    My dirty little secret…..Nickleback..and Beyonce…(shhhhhhhh)…..

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      My favorite part is this comment is also Anonymous….

  4. Liz | 22nd Jan 13

    Great post! Loved it! I like anything with a beat when I am swimming and, my little secret, when I am on the treadmill, I watch old Stargate or Star Trek TV! It keeps my mind occupied enough that I am not concerned with the time!

  5. PeaceMel | 23rd Jan 13

    My happy music is Prince. If you can listen to Raspberry Beret or Let's Go Crazy without moving your body, you have very serious problems. Also Robyn's Call Your Girlfriend, but you have to watch the video so that you know how to dance to that. Dooo it. Trust me.

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      I definately looked up that song on youtube, and it definately looks like a female version of the angry dance in Footloose

  6. James Knibbe | 23rd Jan 13

    You know what's so funny? I remember coming into Junior High and you were one of those people that was all into Alt rock and I was so… jealous. Here I was, coming into grade 7 not even owning a pair of jeans (I was all over those sweet sweat pant/shirt combos with "BASKETBALL" printed down the left leg), and you (among others) were listening to Nirvana and OLP and Moist and all I knew was what my parents listened to: namely, Roy Orbison and Patsy Cline. BUT, after all is said and done I am still as big a nerd and geek as I was in 7th grade, and yet I love me some heavy, grungy, 90's alt rock. I am indebted to the cool crowd at FJH for introducing me to all of it. So I guess what I'm saying is that… it makes me a little sad to hear you cheating on AltRock.

    But I get it. I'm not adverse to a little "Pretty Woman" now and again either 😀

  7. Our Little Fam | 23rd Jan 13

    Loved this post! Brings back memories. Nothing wrong with a little Selena in your life, haha.

  8. chambanachik | 24th Jan 13

    Haha! Our Lady Peace all the way. I liked all the moody alternative stuff, the obscure ska stuff, etc. I'm going to be one of those horrible parents that turns up the will-be classic rock station and say, "YES, KIDS! Now THIS was music!"

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      You should know, I am deliriously happy you are American and know OLP. I thought they were just a Canadian thing.
      Also, I have seen them in concert at least 5 times that I can remember.
      Dh's last Regimental perty, they played a free private concert 🙂

  9. Stephanie | 26th Jan 13

    I still love Call Me Maybe (or whatever that ridiculous song is called). I don't know where I fit in in high school. I had a group of good friends who didn't really fit into any of the "set" crowds, so I was lucky in that way. I professed to hate country and rap though, I remember that. I actually didn't date a boy in part because he liked country and rap, and I couldn't fathom going out with someone who listened to it. Ha! Now, I like pretty much anything (although keep New Country away from me. Gag. I like bluegrass, though.) If I had to pick a favourite, it would be folk, but JP doesn't love that, so we usually listen to Frank Sinatra in the car. Music – and the way that we use it to define ourselves – is a strange, strange thing!

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      Oooo, Blue Eyes in the car. how very dashing of you both 🙂

  10. Rebecca | 27th Jan 13

    ahhh Edgefest!! I went to one – it was awesome!I liked OLP and all those bands too – fave was Green Day and Smashing Pumpkins.

    • reccewife | 4th Feb 13

      Edgefest was amazing. I think. Ok, ok, I don't actually remember. But there was OLP and Green Day there 🙂

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